I consumed the better part of a 12-pack of Diet Pepsi Saturday evening as I completed my HIS course essay. For someone that usually hits the hay between 8:00 and 8:30, 1:30 was quite a feat. I got my second wind around 10:30 and was still wired when I traipsed to bed some three hours later—I threw back some Tylenol PM and slept until a shocking 7:30 the next morning!
This has been a particularly harrowing block of classes for me, as I am sure they will all be. It isn't that they were overly difficult or that I did not find them interesting, but that the perfectionist in me is not satisfied with anything but mastery. I know that I could easily spend a fraction of the time that I spend at school and get away with a C . . . BS is a family trait, after all . . . but there is a rush when I see that A and next to it, a 100%. And what's more, I know that I've internalized the information. I feel bigger to have learned (and for the first time in all my life, feeling bigger feels better!).
Today, I begin my next block of classes, and they will be core classes. I have a business course and an ethics course that I am eager to begin, but at the same time, all too exhausted from the wrap up of my previous block. I have scheduled a short break between classes at the end of this term . . . I know I will need it. Grades will be in within the week, though I already know I've received 100% in my biodiversity course . . . a quarter of my history grade rests with the evaluation of my essay. My stomach is in knots.
I often think what I did with all my free time before I began classes. I know I will miss it come summer when the bike trails and rivers beckon, but for right now, exhausting as this double-full-time status might be, it feels good to know that I spend my extra time bettering myself. I have about five chapters to read tonight, so I suppose this post is more to remind myself of that.
On a side note:
Sophie went to the groomer on Saturday to trim her butt hair. Surprisingly, she isn't the least bit upset with us. Small victories.